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VicariousE
Wanted to be a simple man of the Earth, enjoying art and literature, the bounty of the Earth. Instead, I have to fend against governments and principalities, global conspiracies and bad social engineering, ree, my autism

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Marking 20 years as a Newgrounds member

Posted by VicariousE - February 15th, 2021


I had originally wanted to outline a nice audio blog regarding this anniversary. However, personal circumstances have grown worse, my connection to the internet has been throttled, certain sites have locked out of direct contact... and I'm hungry, suffering extended malnutrition.


In the past 20 years, Newgrounds as a collective and an entity, has been a constant companion, friend, mentor and institution. It's also been a troll, frustrating and downright cringey, but, what good friends haven't been that at times?


Since I took the plunge and subjected my IP address and email account to Newgrounds, Inc. my parents and brother have died, the occupants and rescuers of the Twin Towers complex in NYC have died. Tens, if not hundreds of thousands have died in the wars of profit and vengeance that came after that. Elections were thrown, governments overthrown... many bad people pillaged and are now hunkered and bunkered down, free of prosecution.


So, good and bad times, all around. Unfortunately, all I can see is war and social engineering running its course. I could elaborate on that, but it would only serve to dampen what happened 20 years ago: I had just moved into a new home, taken a shitty job cleaning a movie theater, 6 hours a night, 6 nights a week. While trying to ignore the sunlight outside, and trying my internet, CB radio, literary aliases in the Newgrounds Gold application field, I recalled a movie I rewatched on VHS.


"Fandango" was an 1980's B movie starring Kevin Costner. Set in the early 1970's Texas, a group of newly graduated college students face real life, love and the draft of the Vietnam war. Anyway, the main character used a word I didn't know, and was happy to check it out. It was the first time I went to the World Book Encyclopedia dictionary (Volumes 1 & 2 were massive). They were printed in the late 1950's and contained all variants of words, technical, medical, terrestrial, the works.


Experienced or gained by observing another person’s experience, rather than through first-hand experience... pretty close to what I read in that musty old tome. But at least I did manage to go the other way, reach out and directly affect the minds of those who dwell here.


Best wishes to all, and to all a good night/day, thanks for humoring my stale missive on

whatever the hell this is lol


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Hope things get better!
War sucks.
Never saw Fandango
Looking up new words is the best. I used to listen to A Way With Words, a radio show about words. Pretty sure you csn get it online.
Best woshes to you too!

Twenty years! Time flies. I was actually just browsing some old websites a moment ago--pages that originated in the 90's and early 2000's--so this post hits my feed with good timing.

we're all a lot older

what a great post, my friend!

happy 20th anniversary on newgrounds!

i've also been on NG (as a lurker) since 2001, but i was too young and silly to actually register a profile in there, imagine how cool i would be if i did it back then!

but oh well, 2006 is still as good and i still get looked as a NG veteran by the newer users of the site, so all is good.

as for your description of NG, where you say:
''Newgrounds as a collective and an entity, has been a constant companion, friend, mentor and institution. It's also been a troll, frustrating and downright cringey, but, what good friends haven't been that at times?''

this is a true and accurate statement of what newgrounds is: a place to call home, and an online friend, in the whole wide web world...

i feel sad to hear about the people that you've lost in those years and you have my deepest condolences, and indeed, the war on terror (for vengeance and profit) after 2001 got really nasty really soon, with a massive toll on lives and nations...

i sincerely hope that things will get better in the near future, and that NG will still be here to keep us all happy and united in the pursuit of art+fun.

excellent post man, i absolutely love your articles and your writing is effortlessly good, emotional and to the point.

keep on writing and be well!

The word you discovered being the title of the movie, Fandango? Haven't seen that one, but Grim Fandango comes to mind, somewhat newer game. Totally irrelevant but that's where my my mind wanders there.

Your state of living though man... that's sad to hear. And that there's so little positive outlook on life. Maybe it's the situation that calls for it? If you were satiated and nurtured maybe the world wouldn't seem as grim? Or have you always felt this way? Knowing - or at least reading up on what's potentially but not always verifiable - going on with the world and the 1% and all the future sometimes seems a little hopeless, so little incentive or possibility to ever influence any greater change with the meager resources you have, and how much influence others do, but at the same time it often also just feels distant, like a dream you can choose to ignore if you just wake up with a jolt each morning; don't let the mind linger on what it's been taking in.

Happy 20 years though, I have to say anyway! Really hope things start looking up.

Grim Fandango by LucasArts if IRC, yea played that in the late 90's, likely had to look up what a 'fandango' was. The movie I referenced was unique, I do like oddball plots.....

Kevin Costner takes a seat outside a dilapidated airplane hangar, looking up at a Cessna, containing one of his college buddies, who's ready to parachute to win a bet. "Vicarious entertainment, courtesy of Phil Hicks!"

"Hey! Which one of you pricks took the wrong bag, who's got my laundry?" Costner's character drops his longneck beer to the tarmac, takes off his broken sunglasses and looks up - his buddy likely has a parachute bag full of cleaned laundry, and not a life-saving device.

I mean, IDK, I was drunk, it was late in my day, none of my other IRC names were available... think I was watching/listening to Fandango on VHS, ripped from cable TV at the time.

Nah, the world's grim. Even if I was guaranteed a stable life for life, the facts are too obvious that silent, hidden organizations are in control of the world. Have I always felt this way? Aside from the prophecy I was told... no. I did have faith that America's 'betters' had a handle on all things, both foreign and domestic, but they were really just fallible humans: padding pockets, being led astray and vulnerable to a long term game they had no idea existed.

Thank you for your astute observations my old friend. It does seem like a dream, and it does seem hopeless that I can buck fate enough to make a difference. (next post)

Odd thing is, all my dreams are minor variations of what I've experienced IRL. Dreaming of future events as a child has been... interesting, to say the least! 21st century video game and movie plots transported to my younger self was almost horrific, but the real horror is realizing that now, in the present day. Next post will cover the dream of walking north, and the fireball ahead of me - do I dare go to work on 9/19? Or will my need outweigh my fear?

What men have done to the world & are continuing to do to it is just sickening. Reality sucks, but it doesn’t have to. I just wish most of the people would know that things can change & for the better. That they can change the reality of this world when all together, stuff like governments, bad people & business shithead’s don’t care about anything but them self’s & the world & creatures on it have to suffer because of it. Stupidity & abundant narcissism from people is what is destroying the earth. What humanity does this decade will depend on the fate of the world forever. I know it’s a little off but I really hope people can change things for the better, the one’s who care & that this world can live better. Sorry that’s thing are rough right now I hope it changes. Happy 20 years of being on NG VicariousE. This is a little bit messy but I’m willing to do the best I can to help the world.

Thank you for the comments! I agree things can change. There are 2 forces at work - corporations that feed, clothe, and socially direct us, and the banks, which will always win no matter what happens. Both of these powers pray to essentially evil forces, and their intentions will never aid the Earth or humanity.

Best wishes Fast, hope for the best and plan for the worst

On the plus side, we've lived through historic times and come through on the other side to live through more historic times.

As for those who didn't, may they rest in peace.

Sure did, but not happy the stage's been set for even more red letter dates. Lotta tryhards out there wanna tangle w/ the big boys, make a name for themselves.

i like you're background for ur profile looks like it was made by doublemaximus <3

It was! Should put that info somewhere on this page. She did an excellent job of wrangling a good price vs what I wanted. Her art 'style' and flexibility seemed like it would work out, sure did :)

christ bless

Thank you, sure hope I get some leniency, can't see much light down the road but....

the people demand updates!

Between abject apathy and mortal fruition of illogical information... yea, later today I'll have to talk about lame ass shit

@Gimmick @VicariousE Way I see it, the only way to handle that is to cross that bridge as it comes. Anything else would be just too paralyzing.

Good point, only bummer would be... don't care about the bridges after I've crossed them. Might be some fire damage, but it's important for me to at least share

@Gimmick @VicariousE @VicariousE Yep, what's done is done for the most part.

why did you lock the comments on your latest doomsday post

shit, shouldn't have been locked, odd glitch im guessing, though was kinda hoping ppl'd gloss it over lol

Mmm same. Saw what I deem a similarly odd gem recently, Six String Samurai - ever heard of that one? It's about a sword-wielding guitar-playing dude on his way to Lost Vegas - last standing bastion of freedom in the US - to take the throne after The King's untimely death. Chased by Death, in company of an unwanted kid; with all sorts of untimely encounters along the way of their venture through the desolate desert wasteland... it was pretty atmospheric. Surprisingly good action choreography too. Reminded of Mad Max and similars but still very unique

Woaah... so that was the source of this grand alias of yours? Captivating excerpt. Memorable choice. Finna add that to my watchlist. Reminds me of the start in Buffalo Soldiers, 2001. An army regiment just playing a casual football game in the barracks, and one accidentally hits his head on a table and dies. So they throw him out the window...

Mmm, life is indeed, though I feel hopeful these days, There's so much waking up going on the world lately, it seems. I'm listening to a lot of Russell Brand talks lately. Not the most conspiratorial (misleading and overused a word that may be though), but he brings issues to light in a very satirical and clear-minded way, feels like there are some big names out there at least letting people start to hone their critical thinking skills again; assess the information they're given before just gulping it down. And a lot of positivity. The potential to manifest good things. Ever tried transcendental meditation? Might just be listening to content that affirms my own views and doesn't reach those it really needs to, but still, maybe we're headed the right way.

Ooh. On route to the next one...