and im back ._.
i dont feel like talking though...its for a bunch of reasons and i got a bunch of stuff on my mind right now :3
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i tried to respond to every comment from the beginning...
then i went to work and chopped the top of my left index finger DEEP, just above the knuckle
hurts to type
hi steve
sucks about your index finger...
and im not entirely wanting to talk to anyone right now...just really depressed about everything...and by that i mean EVERYTHING that has ever happened in my life ._.
except being born, cause then you wouldnt be around to bitch about it
i know how you feel - its been a Very long time since i was 'with someone'
whoa.....
it couldnt possibly be worse than mine....
yeah but broken skin lets in all kinds a shit - just glad the blade was steel and zinc coated... how often do you use the blade That close to the handle? it was hella sharp
you get cut when your arm got broken? oh, maybe take a pic of yourself with the tickets to show your arm was busted and spastic.... hope court goes well, maybe you should find a lawyer that knows the local judge :|
lets put it this way
i would be incredibly happy right now if i smacked my face into the wall and there was a nail there ._.
or trying to sever off your index finger?
(steve)
dude
i NEVER have
EEEVVVEEERRR
at least you have at one point
fah - that memory is dust and damn near meaningless
at least youre still under 30 - you could actually find a HS senior still
its been done before
(steve)
(steve)
but still my point is at least you have....
and yet again dude not a single person has ever shown interest in me. they tend to not like associating themselves with me...
also can you guys please stop saying im "cool" or anything positive like that?
i WILL NOT go into details but it bugs me.....
also i feel like puking right now...not even sure why ._.
ok
too much hunger and pain right now to dispute your assertions
just sound heart sick - had a lot of years of that too
hanging out at the mall didnt help either :|
only made it worse when I worked for the mall... but the brosephs on my shift were my age and just as loserish
why does it say (steve) twice?
mustve really meant it
steve quit joking he's obviously WAY serious (life is too short to be serious!)
im too short to be seriously taken :|
(steve)
it doesn't make me feel any better when people that are like half my age are already going out
thats a real big self esteem boost right fucking there....
^thats not even why im depressed right now though.
(damitrin)
i am really fucking serious right now.
but those kids are like feral animals and i dont think emotion enters into it for them
well so am i!!
so everyone here is depressed but me? (nah im depressed! i mean come on! i mentally die everytime i look at my ex!)
im just in pain, though the bad tooth isnt as noticable as the hand
lousy time to jet, but i gotta eat to get my health bar up
...is he still there in the house with you?! kick that dude to the curb... lose that 0 and get yo self a hero
(steve)
still doesn't make me feel any better
and guys here sometimes have a different girl every week and it took me 19 years to get ONE who ended up being a complete bitch and dumping me and afterwards has already had TWO girlfriends!
(damitrin)
as much as i hate kupia i still miss her
i mean when i was with her at least i was happy even though she acted like a total bitch all the time.
Night all - sorry I was absent today, but we're out of money and we need to take in farm anim.. pets! I got cut putting in a post to finish up the critter field fence....
I do not like goats! They stink and have evil eyes :( Maybe a chupacabra will sneak over the boarder and eat them after we get the rent money.
Just dunno anymore.....
i feel like going for a walk.
its not going to make me feel anywhere near better but at least it'd be something to occupy my mind i guess....
i'll be back later
well i came back
i dont think anyone is here though
the walk didn't do much of anything....had everyone that drove by turn their nose up at me and had someone shout something at me but i dont know what they said....
totally a GREAT thing to have to experience while im walking around while incredibly depressed...
also i was starting to think of more stuff halfway through my walk and my eyes teared up a bit ._.
Somebody's always here :|
hi ._.
sandy25198
i said something!!!!!!!!!!!!