soo stevie, nick, erami, turtle and i arent people? -_- im done talking to you brandon!
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no thats not what i mean
i actually have a hard time talking to you guys too. it may not seem like it but i do....
but nevermind im going to go and feel like crap.......
bye
i feel like crap too brandon......thank you!
at least you weren't curled up in a fucking ball for the past hour with your eyes watering up and feeling like you were worth less than dirt. hell for a bit i was questioning why i didn't go ahead and do what i was thinking about doing a few months ago. then i remembered the last time i talked to kupia and how she was saddened about the fact i was still alive and i dont want to do anything that would make her fucking happy or give her slightest bit of joy.
also you didn't read that the way i meant! yes i was telling you the truth about sometimes having a hard time talking to you guys. but when i said "people" i meant people OTHER THAN YOU GUYS!
no ones even here so im just going to go back and do what i was doing for the past hour.....
and if you're wondering why i was "curled up in a fucking ball for the past hour with your eyes watering up and feeling like you were worth less than dirt"
it was because i was thinking to myself
"well brandon looks like you fucked up yet again, and you're probably going to lose your friends...again"
im sorry but i've lost friends before too brandon....but the best part about losing is finding it over again
but you guys have an easier time befriending people
you guys are seriously the only people i have to talk to
i can't talk to anyone else. ive tried i just cant.....
this is the only form of fun i have during the day.
^i was crying while typing this...and still am. so go ahead and say crap about me crying.
ive heard enough shit over the years from people to last me a couple lifetimes.
and im going go back to laying in bed feeling like crap now. bye.
and im seriously contemplating not coming back tomorrow...or the next day...or over the weekend...
i dont deserve to talk to any of you guys.
dude dont do that! i fucked up and said the wrong things out of frustration from the entire day and im sorry (where the fuck is steve when u need him!! though he probably wont even do anything!)
deserve? brandon u arent a peasent in a king dominant world!!!
(brandon)
why do you speak this way, young man?
I've put more years of losery under my belt than you've had years on this Earth - it is I who should beg attention.
u come after he leaves?!??!?
Jesus! You think I have a choice in the mater?!
I spent almost 3 hours trying to cut branches 30 foot above the ground
add to that the ma and son are switching bedrooms just now
god fucks if i counted right thats 12 burns and 13 cuts.......u gonna get it all rainbow barfer!
try shoving a walnut very deep in your left ear, then you'll know pain as I do :P
I should be finding a doctor online so I can fix this. not calming post-adolescent angst from a thousand miles away, but you folk are friends and worth having and keeping as well as possible
Crying for yourself is a vein and unworthy thing - crying for another is okay.
Yet I did cry about not being able to have a girlfriend, though I fooled myself into thinking I had.
My two parents and very few friends treated me well enough, so I had the strength to go on.
If I could I would be right there beside you now, because you are a human being of worth.
Many others wouldn't care two shits about those things, but we both know life is a wilderness without friends. Nick Dami and I are with you shoulder to shoulder in this twisted world, and you shouldn't let the people you do come into contact with dictate your emotions, and that's a hard thing to master......
nah i'll shove a knife in my throat first see how it feels and if i like it i'll do what u suggested! hows that sound? i think it's pretty well thought out!
if you gotta go out, its better to do it by saving someone else
too late to find a liquor store open... just make pancakes or take brandons cue and sleep
so who's in the house with you now? i'd think your father wouldn't let you get so hopeless (either)
no one.........imma leave........
yep - maybe you'll find new trouble tomorrow
anything worth trouble is worth finding
or something
sorry for how i was acting earlier.....
i just hate having to go through losing all the people i consider friends.....
(steve)
i didn't sleep.....probably should have though since i have to take my stupid brother to school in the morning
Better to have love and lost than never to have loved before.
No buses? or do they cost extra?
this is what the school said when it comes to buses for us
they said we live too close to go by bus, but if we lived like 50 feet further away we'd be fine with going by bus. and even then we'd have to go almost completely out of town to get on the bus because they wont come to the house or near it.
Soooo, let him walk 50 feet to the nearest bus stop!
Kid next door had to walk 1000 feet a few times when our road was shut down
Gotta keep at these fuckers or else it's your gas money and mornings
gotta be better things to do than truck him around - just need to find it.... "gotta braid the dental floss before noon pa"
there are no "bus stops" in town though...they just decide the randomest places to pick the kids up...
for example the place they'd be picking him up is across the street from a fucking cemetery!
besides. im not driving MY car to take him to school :P
i gotta use my sister's shitty Hyundai because i dont have plates on the Ranchero at the moment and the Lark needs to get the tire pumped up and it may need some carburetor work. its bad enough the last time we took it out of the garage the brake line snapped
fuck it, how far is the cemetery? sounds like good place to bang a goth chick
shit, very rare for a steel brake line to snap
yeah, still gotta pull the honda trike carb - it almost started, but I guess I gotta go the full mile - maybe ill shoot some (a little) ether in first, just to make damn sure
its pretty much outside of town. we aren't exactly close to it either....
and id say the other cemetery would work better. that one has a mausoleum whereas the first one has a fucking huge obelisk with like 7 flights of stairs going up to it from the street where the founder of the town and his family is buried :P although that one has like NO ONE going to it and its surrounded by trees...and has a biggish open field...but god i love goth and emo chicks ._. hahahahaha
it snapped right in the middle too...and at one of the ends....no idea how that happened....
as for the Honda i dont know what i could say about that....
When he's old enough, get him a moped or something.... who drove you to school, before you did yourself?
Maybe a chunk of salt or battery acid? weird... and expensive to replace - could just crimp it and drive easy till you get a new one, or somehow... nah, to run a die over it and thread it into an adapter... real pain in the ass, and seldom come out okay
Viper
i cannot function socially AT ALL