Should I drastically change who I am? Thinking, yes, probably should.

When people older than myself wanted to assume control, I let them, when someone asked for my time, help or a loan I gave it to them. Now that I don't have the means to be so generous, I'm labeled a cheat, liar, asshole, bum, trespasser.

So what if I suddenly became an asshole for real? Would save me plenty of time, money and aggravation. The few friends and family I have in real life have turned their backs on me, what's to lose?

If I'm able to access Newgrounds after this month, I might not be so kind as I have been, but I'll be worse in real life. America is only good for assholes.

I was barely old enough to appreciate this nation's bicentennial, but I remember how America was, and I wouldn't say it has improved. Once you put technology and intellectual shit aside, we are far worse off now. The corporations and foreign interests are organized, the people who were born and raised in the US, are not. The two party system is a catastrophic failure and encumbrance on our way of life, and should be disbanded, new parties should be formed.

Once a few years ago, I had the thought of putting all my grievances down (along with terms of disbanding the 2 party system), publishing it to a gofundme or kickstarter page, with the hope I could pay to have it listed in the wall street journal as a full page ad. I'm sure those fucks would refuse, so it would go the second most expensive print ad available... why? Those fucks need to realize the American public is not an unlimited resource from which they can draw on.

Oh well, fuck it, who cares enough to foment proper and logical change eh?

Early last year I left a news post saying I needed time off, and I guess I still do for the same reasons.

It's hard to be a part of this place when my own world is.. not where I'd like it to be. It's hard to write unbiased and helpful reviews, when so many personal conflicts haven't been resolved. Also, I'm still pissed off that I lost money commissioning art work from some users here, I've had a lot of deeply personal things stolen from me through my adult life, not risking losing another dollar to members here, sorry.

All I can say is, thanks for your responses and concerns. I've read comments left here on my page, but 'My Feed' says 109, and I know if I click it, I'll never know where I left off unless I start counting and scrolling.

So, eh, leave me alone to lurk while I try to get some kinda life set up for myself. Might be easier, even exciting for young people to remake themselves, start over again, but at my age it's mortifying.

Best wishes y'all

The past month has been deeply disturbing for me personally and financially.  It's really fun when family, local associates and the landlord all slip their shit at the same time.  So I gotta deal with shit.  Is it me, or do people who have a college degree think it's a license to steal and/or a good substitute for lack of knowledge?

50% rent increase and retroactively due?  Nope, not legal in any state, and no, not good for my sanity.  I shouldn't have to explain to a silver spoon, shit that should've been taught to him in high school.  Even Trump wouldn't pull a stunt like that; he'd just write it off lol

That's all, thought the folks in NJ and PA would like to know.. guess there's a few in other states.  For some reason Wawa doesn't have a presence in western PA.  Beats going to Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts or 7-11, which are kinda pricey.  Anyway - https://www.wawa.com/  - coffee - free - any size (was what I was told)

yup

The guy who makes Cyanide and Happiness has about 10k in followers here... yet he hasn't touched his account in years (plural, more than a few).  Unfollowed.  When I start to see his work coming through the Art or Movie Portals again, I'll reconsider pressing the heart button.  Until then, he's gotta re-earn his respect with me.

I know 1 isn't a particularly large number, but it means something to me, even if it doesn't to someone who has abandoned their account for greener pastures.  Normally I favorite anyone I see or hear that has promise to grow into their craft, to make a proper go of it.  But with big numbers comes big responsibilties.  Maybe it's different on other mass media, social networking sites, but not to me, not here.

There was once a cap on how many ppl you could follow/favorite here of just under 1000.  After some fettling, that number's increased.  Tom Fulp, if you wanna press the issue, make a stink about this.  Make following someone here exclusive: either confirm a solid cap, or start asking the still active Newgrounders here to unfollow these dead accounts.

It's reasonable to reward those who contiune to share and view.  Hell, dead accounts have been a fact of life since the internet began, I've done it too, but never have I left so much behind... or have I?  Just now considering all those moldering black video tapes of which I poured so much of my soul into, and the time it took from my finite existence.  Damn, I'm overdue for getting an analog capture device :/

Blurry is better than nothing.

Yeah I don't have anything pertinent or monumental to say, other than I'm here, I'm alive and I'm still on Newgrounds.

For those of you in or just graduated school, 17 years is a lot of time.  Indeed, many good, bad and indifferent years have passed.  For almost all of my years on Newgrounds, my home country has gone insane, from the top down, and that's sad. 

Seize the good moments when they come, for they are fleeting, here for a short time, then gone.

I've had some damn fine times here.  Through the diversity of the membership, a simple thing arises: humor, in its most unabashed and unashamed form.  So here's looking at you, kids.

https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/755559

(This spot used to contain the 2015 Pico Day pic from the roof)

I'm sure I could batch-dump these... shame about what happened yesterday, that Florida school

If I double post one of these, sorry.  I'm an old man with a new bag of strong coffee

This blog is sure to run out of space, before I run out of memes.  Think the cap is 100 pix/gifs.

(Edit: it did run out of space, so unhappy)

Legit HuffPo article, hard to tell the memes from the news.  Better put more coffee on.

Apologies to any admin or mod who has to go through this whole thing, btw.

Buddy of mine clipped it, only had a few stunt jumps to do, so I let it go till my 45th birthday last year, was a nice present to myself.  Now all I need to do is figure out how to use the in-game editor... coffee's done.

I used to get a lot more work done at a standing desk.

Made that for WIN95, background's from Monty Python's Flying Circus video game!

Made this as a title card for my old public access TV show, don't think it made the tape...

One more gif... shit I had a folder I forgot all about, but it would likely break potato PCs

Promised myself I'd stop spamming around noon...

Had a late lunch.

Need to get another hard drive/ssd soon.

All Done? Submit?

Nope, not done yet, Mr. AutoBlog 9000, I'm your stress test for today

which is a very special day in my book.  Never know if I'll live to see my 18th NG birthday

ya know.

The goal of every geek since WarGames the movie came out in the 1980s.

Shame I don't have the same stamina I used to have, when I first made this account.

This much shitposting is hard work.

Dammit, another gif, I'll be lucky if this thing even publishes.

Crap, wouldn't publish, sure doesn't look like 123 images >:(  How can I choose between my babies?!

FUCK not even 53 images?

Is 51 1 2 many........... why is

Deleting the one about how you can donate your tatoos to a museum, maybe now it will post

The absolute fuck, 49?!

48?  This really is unfair, now I'm gonna delete the Pico Day 2015 pic, it's sad really.

37.  Down to 37 measly memes in this post, I'm so sorry, Tom initially said you could post a hundred pictures....

Can't do 30, huh?  Not even 25, judas priest what a jip.

EDN

So like, happy 2018 I guess.  'Problems of the future, today' and all.  Might as well use this post as a brief, bulleted commentary on all the things that make me a grumpy cat.  Some will be stupid as fuck, some will be be dead on target, some might be misfires, I won't know unless you, the valued reader, comment.  I'll put moar bullets in the clip as this week progresses.  Wtih over 300 fans, kinda feel like I've been neglecting them, when I'm just suffering from NG ennui (slow loading pages, lack of big game dev uploads, etc.)

• The Pussyification of American English as a Spoken Language.  Thanks to countless broadcast TV and radio affliates in the less populated areas of our sizable country, newsreaders, sportscasters, weathercasters and traffic reporters, have infiltrated the more populous areas.  The result?  Whiny, pinched and bassless voices are destroying local accents.  The 21st century is doing a great job of homogonizing our very speech patterns, and not just English.  A suburban person from Texas is now likely to sound like Kermit the Frog after a few cups of joe, instead of a deep sounding, slightly slower paced, southern US based drawl.
• MIC / IIC (military industrial complex / information industrial complex) versus the Bankers.  These two have been at it since before the Second World War, and the American citizen has been paying for it ever since.  The result?  Our nations wealth has been sucked up by fancy war toys and Wall St. ramoras.
• SUV's.  God, why?  All that space with nothing in it, huge engine pulling a carcass that feels like a sports van, and obstructs other driver's view... perfect FU vehicle for the USA, wouldn't you say?  Even our patron saint and cult leader Tom Fulp, eschews these weighty whales in favor smart station wagons, for a family of 4.  Maybe OK for upscale indigenous migrant workers, scampering from condo to duplex on his/her way up the corporate food chain, dunno, hard to speculate... bad enough I'm visiting the intentions of those who actually bought a new SUV, let alone one that cost over 80K
• Food Quality in the US.  Honey is called 100% pure, yet it's cut with corn syrup, sugar is called 100% pure, yet it's cut with imported saccharin.  In the past 2-3 decades, the corporate machine has managed to fuck up even chicken, which is outsourced to poor southern farmers, who barely earn minimum wage... sometimes they get bounuses for under-feeding the chickens, feed which is provided to the farmer against any future payments.  Millions of acres of land are slowly becoming toxic, thanks to petroleum based insecticide, pesticide, fertilizers and preservative agents.  For every good advance in food production, there are 3 that add unecessary chemicals to the food chain.  Laws that dictate conformity, waste thousands of tons of produce.  Could go on, but, without local farms running things bio-mass neutral, people are gonna get sick and die sooner, plain n simple.  It's hard to find chocolate that doesn't turn your tounge numb, thanks to a new seed oil that prevents foaming.  And we wonder where obesity stems from, huh ._.
• Simple Lawlessness.  Happens everywhere, and the amount of money involved has increased with time.  Unground economies are the latest sticking point in our government, though it's hiding behind the label called 'immigration'.  The dirty truth is, there is slavery all around us, being run and approved by unaccountable entities masquerading as businesses, leaders and charities.  Sucks balls.
• Compulsory Personal Computer Use.  I should expand on this gripe quite a lot, but I kinda consider myself all too close to the paradox/preference....  Don't care for 'congestion charging' or using my cellphone over public wi-fi, just to park in a big city.  Don't care to use my phone to redeem e-coupons (thankfully, my grocery store has a analog option), or buy anything.  My desktop PC at home is relatively secure enough that I don't mind buying things from it... but when it comes to video games, sheeeesh!  It's a fricken toy, shouldn't need to log on to some network just to get it to work, especially if it's a single player only kinda thing... meh, I'm old school.

Past month has been pretty grim.  Right before Florida got hit, video card gave up the ghost.  The next day I impacted 2 teeth, which I did not want to lose.  My backup laptop has aged to the point where it can barely handle the internet, but I did get a new video card late last month... which cost 50$ more than the 2 1/2y/o card it replaced, and is a lazy bitch.  Damn bit miners driving up video card prices.

After I managed to 'reseat' the 2 teeth (so blood vessels could function properly to and from the affected bones), I kinda crashed energy wise.  Had been taking naproxen for a fortnight to deal w/ the swelling and pain, once I tit-rated away from the drug, the old bugs came back in full force.

Anyway, today's my birthday.  Yesterday I got a strange greeting card in the mail, with printed address and content cut and taped.  My sister's had a severe MS attack that likely did some terrible permanent damage to her already ailing body.

Apologies to the Audio Anniversary project for the Audio Portal, my brain's been cut from a sweet 32 track mixer, down to an 8 track mixer, that buzzes and screeches lol :p  I am not able to participate in any of the roles I had requested... back when I was at least feeling capable.

Lastly, I'm deleting my audio uploads here, as they were not of a quality I can be proud of, even though I found them contextually OK. 

Best wishes to all of you. Guess I'll be throwing more money away on NG, by way of yearly supporter upgrade (expired a few days ago), new poster/T-shirt (maybe not the new T-shirt, but the old one), and the forthcoming theatre showing of NG's talent in PA (which I sure hope I can attend).  Sadly, a few bucks are the only thing I can offer the site at this moment in time.  After today the 'kitty' is dry, not making any new commissions or putting a dollar more into this site until I see: more people joining and using Newgrounds, more NG artists promoting this site, better advertising base and further improvements to the back end... which have been proceeding, and that's hopeful.

Tired.  I'll stick some @'s in here later, peace fellow hood rats.

Due to the subjective nature of my arcane knowledge and interests, I am unable to contribute anything particularly useful to Newgrounds at this time.  While its been increasingly difficult to enjoy the site's subject matter (mainstream cartoons, music, videogames, etc.) for a number of years, I've done my best to look past the click-bait packaging, and enjoy the talent and hard work of the submissions uploaded here... and I'm kinda tired of doing so.  My bullshit filtering glasses have become uncleanable, likely due to age and a blood disease I contracted from a tick bite in 2012. 

If I had any good sense, I should've went to Mexico or south-east Asia on a "medi-holiday" long ago.  Living in America used to be an equitable challenge, but thanks to the manipulations of bankers and businessmen, it has become a hostile paper tiger to an ever increasing number of its citizens (and the Western world too).

I'm truly at a loss for what good I can do in a place like Newgrounds anymore.

If anyone out there has any questions about the vageries of life as it appears to you, please ask it below.  I have been dilligently searching for your answers for quite some time now, in the hope I can be of service.